Feeling Optimistic

I am beginning to feel optimistic about the future. As most of you know, I finished my Master's in May and have yet to find a job. I did my internship with the NC Division of Public Health and they typically keep on their interns-this was the first year in 7 that they were not able to, FIGURES, right? I have that kind of luck. But I have been chugging along and applying to any and every job that I qualify for. Well I am finally having my FIRST face to face interview and I know I can rock this. I have a lot to offer and I know I would be a good assest to this company. With my confidence, I am sure to knock their socks off and I am doing everything necessary to make sure that happens.

On to other things...I am a very independent person but lately I feel like I want to finally settle down and share my life with someone, so I took a giant leap of faith and joined Match.com. I was a member in 2004 after I moved here since I didn't know many people and thought that was a great way to meet people. I should have known better than to try it again. I met 2 guys in 2004, one was nice and normal but there were no sparks. The other guy was CRAZY! He definitely had stalkerish tendencies, no thanks! Anyway, this time I didn't fare much better. I only went on one date and honestly, it went well but he was a little too stuck on himself for me. During the first date he asked me on a second date to go to a Canes game but then cancelled via email 4 hours before the game to CLEAN his house, what!?!? I thought I would be nice and give him a second chance but every time I talked to him, I felt nothing so I decided to email him and let him no it was over. For the record, I was going to call but I figured since he didn't have the decency to call me and cancel our date, he did not deserve a phone call from me, lol! His response to my email was that he agreed with me and was going to call and tell me that very night. Hehe, whatever, he did that to save his pretentious little face! I have the worst luck when it comes to dating, I swear I have a saying on my head that only weirdos can see. Eh, I know he is out there somewhere and I will find him, he might be right under my nose and I don't even know it! One thing is for sure-no more Match.com for me, I am finished with that!

Keep your fingers crossed for me for the interview next week!!! I want this job more than anything!

5 months

So its been 5 months since I graduated with my Master's degree and still no job! UGH! I have had someemails for companies interested, phone interviews and I have filled out questionnaires and still no job. But the good news is that I have an actual in person interview on October 21st and I am praying that this works out. I am so READY for a job in my field and I am afraid if I do not get one soon, I will no longer have my mental health. The kids wear on my nerves everyday and that just tells me that I need a job in my field, the sooner the better for everyone involved.

Believe me I will do whatever it takes to get this job I am interviewing for on the 21st...BRING IT ON!!!!

Busy!

Once again it has been awhile but I haven't felt like blogging and I have been super busy. My parents came last weekend for a visit and we were busy the entire weekend. We went and saw a double feature of Toy Story and Toy Story 2 in 3D. They happen to be 2 of my all time favorite Disney movies and I am looking forward to Toy Story 3 coming out next year. It was great watching the movie with my parents, sister and nieces! Then we went to a wine tasting at Regency Park which was nice. It was raining but the wine tasting was under cover so it wasn't too bad. I enjoyed it even though I am not a big wine drinker since wine doesn't agree with me most of the time, but I did enjoy a few glasses of white wine (and paid for it with a 2 day migraine). Then we went out to dinner at Sushi Thai-one of my favorite places to go for sushi! on Sunday, my sister, mom, Jordyn, Linsey and I went shopping. It was fun and the night was topped off with pizza for dinner. My parents stayed the night with me on Sunday and we just chilled out. They left Monday morning to head back to NY. I can't wait to see them again at Christmas!!

I also started training for my February marathon last week too. The first week was tough-it took me awhile to get back into my running groove and even 2 miles seemed like a struggle. Today was my longest run for the week at 4 miles and it was by far my best run this week. Hopefully each run will get better!! Only 19 weeks and 389 miles of training left until my marathon!!!

Mini Vacay

I had a 4 day weekend this past weekend and it was great! I worked Saturday at Padoodles for a few hours in the afternoon, stopped in and saw my sister and niece for a bit and came home and began work on my scrapbook for grad school! It only took me a few hours and it was finished! Sunday is a typical day for rest and that is exactly what I did!! It felt great to lay on the couch all day and do nothing! On Monday, I vacuumed my car out and washed it and of course a bird pooped on it within a few hours, oh well! Then I washed all the windows inside and out. And then my fall cleaning was complete! I had a great 4 days off and now I am back to work BUT my parents are here until Monday so I get to hang out with the family after work and all weekend...Woohoo!!!!!!

The last piece to the puzzle

You're looking at it! My diploma finally came!!! I have never been so excited to see that East Carolina envelope! I have been waiting for a few months for this! I finally feel as though graduate school is finished. As my friend Zach pointed out, I now have proof!!! I can't wait to get that baby framed and hung on my wall! Every time I look at my diploma, I feel this rush of accomplishment and its still sinking in that I have my Master's degree!!! Now if I could only find the job to go with it.......

Slacker

So I am a slacker and haven't blogged lately. Its not that I don't have stuff to blog about because I do, I just have been lazy. I had a great Labor Day weekend. Some friends and I rented a lake house in Badin Lake, NC. It was a great house and made you feel like you were at home! The weather was perfect! Not too hot during the day and a little cool at night! We cooked out on the grill, played some corn hole and just relaxed in the company of good friends! It was a perfect ending to a fan-tabulous summer!!!! Here's to a great fall!!!

PS-and of course it won't let me download any of my pictures so please check them out on Facebook or MySpace!

6 months

Its hard to believe that 6 months have passed (September 5 is the official 6 month mark) since I lost my best friend. In some ways, it seems like eternity but other ways it feel like just yesterday. Going to NY for the softball tournament was my first trip home since the funeral. Traveling with Jessica made it a little easier but it honestly didn't hit me until the morning of the tournament. My dad told me he still remembered the summer before when him, Chris and I went to Oswego to reminisce and then we went to the Oswego Races. I burst into tears as soon as he said it. My dad felt so bad but he had forgotten that it had been exactly a year before. It was hard at the softball field because as soon as Chris's mom saw me, she cried and of course I teared up too. After I got through that moment, I felt better. I could feel his presence with me all day and that gave me the peace I needed. But unfortunately, it really hit me that night at Keddy's. The last time I was there, I was with Chris and no matter what I did, I couldn't relax and have fun. So I left and I cried all the way home, went into the house and my dad held me as I cried. New York just isn't the same without Chris. If my parents ever move away from there, there will be nothing to take me back there.

Chris-you were my best friend and I will carry you in my heart always. The moment I found out you died, a piece of my heart died with you. I will never again take any of my relationships with family and friends for granted. Life is too short and your death confirmed that. I feel you with me on a daily basis and more times than none, I wish I could pick up the phone and call you but of course you will never answer again. You're in my heart always, I will love you forever.