I'm back, at least for the time being...

It has been awhile since I have blogged but it hasn't been because of time issues, I just haven't felt like blogging. I have been busy but not super busy, but that is about to change since August is a month full of travel, fun, family and friends!

Next weekend, my friend Melissa, my sister and brother in law and a few of their friends are going to see Def Leopard and Poison in concert!! Super excited for some tailgating and a night of good music with friends and family:) Then the next night I get to hang out with my favorite almost 3 year old, Ry and his new sister Elle for the night! I leave for Richmond, VA on August 11 to meet my parents and nieces there and we are going to King Dominion on the 12th for a day full of roller coasters and water rides! Then we will drive back to Raleigh that night and my parents will be here until the 16th. My dad wants to learn to water ski so we will be enjoying most of the visit on Harris Lake! On the 21st, I fly home to NY for the first annual Christopher Sligar Memorial Softball Tournament. Friends and family of Chris will participate in this event to raise money for a scholarship to be formed in Chris's name. I am looking forward to this because I will be able to see most of my friends at the same time and the tournament should be full of laughs since I am not a skilled softball player...LOL!!

Of course, this trip will be bittersweet because it is my first trip to NY since the funeral. I know it will be an emotional weekend with lots of laughing and crying but I know Chris would want me there. This was his type of get together, a bunch of people getting together to have fun and laugh. I have been doing okay lately, I haven't been crying as much but I go through days when it takes everything I have not to burst into tears. Sometimes I hear song that makes me tear up or think about a memory of us and I just lose it. Other times, I smile when I hear a song or remember a fun time. One thing I know for sure is that Chris is always with me. I know this sounds weird but sometimes I can feel him with me. I was having a hard time one night, I couldn't fall asleep because I kept thinking about him and I was crying. I asked God to give me a sign that Chris was okay and all of a sudden I felt an overwhelming sense of peace. At that moment, I knew Chris was okay and he was there with me. Its time like that that renews my faith and gives me the strength to go on with my life.

Until next time...