Randomness

I have a lot to talk about but its all random and not related. The past few days have been ok. I am still trying to comprehend all that has happened in the last week. I have finally accepted Brandon's death but I still am feeling the loss of him in my life. I still cannot believe how much his death has affected me. I have finally realized the reason his death has had this profound affect on me...ZACH is the reason. Brandon and Zach were close friends and Zach and I are close friends and I hate when people close to me feel pain. I feel the pain with them. Brandon and I were friends too but not as close as him and Zach were. I am also feeling the loss of Zach and his move to Florida. Its weird but I feel lost without him and for the past 4 years we have lived 2 hours away but now we're 2 states away and that bothers me more than I could ever imagine. I am so afraid of him finding someone else and the weird thing is we haven't even dated since 1995!!! I did tell him (via myspace) how I feel and no response yet....So, I am just continue living my life and everything will turn out how its supposed too!

I have been somewhat productive this weekend but not as much as I would have liked to have been. I did get new running sneakers and I went to the gym both Saturday and Sunday, which is huge for me over the weekend. I usually tend to stay away from there on the weekend but I am determined to lose 5 lbs and the gym is a good place to start. I also did some homework and some laundry but not much else. I only work 2 days this week so I have plenty of time to do stuff around the house and finish some homework.

I made baked spaghetti tonight with eggplant, zucchini and shrimp and it was great! I even have enough left over for dinner for a few more nights...YEAH! I love just throwing ingredients together and when it turns out to be yummy, it makes it all the more better!

So I learned a valuable lesson last week at work. Ry is 21 months old and his mind is like a sponge, he repeats everything I say and is learning so much right now. So he was watching tv after his nap and I was trying to pick up some of his toys and I dropped one and I said, OH CRAP! Well, then Ry started imitating me by dropping a toy and said all of a sudden he said OH CRAP! OOOPS!!! So I tried to remedy the situation by trying to explain to him that Ms. Sara made a boo boo and that wasn't something either of us were supposed to say. Needless to say, I felt extremely guilty and told Michelle but she said it was ok. At least it wasn't something worse and I was able to hopefully nip it in the bud. He hasn't said it since so I hope that continues!!! BAD, MS. SARA!!!

I also want to say thank you to everyone who helped me get thru last week and I am truly grateful to all my friends. I am one lucky girl!!